the pr|ce to pay

Responsibilities.

How much of it can one shoulder?
Is there any scale to tell that it's too much a burden?

Remember the "MrBean song"?

Didn't they say that I would make a mistake? Didn't they say you were gonna be trouble? People told me you were too much to take, I couldn't see it, I didn't wanna know. I let you in and you let me down. You pushed me up and you turned my whole life around.

I wish someone warned me before hand....

have u ever?

- Brandy Lyrics

Im so sad... dunno why!!!!

f|na||y.. |t's o.v.e.r!

Alhamdulillah.

Finally the car claim processes over today, after i went to collect the balance of the claim's proceed at Maluri's Public Bank.

Its a very long process, i lost my car on 4 October 2007, claim approved on 6 April 2008, cheque approved and sent to the bank on 30 April 2008, and today, 14 May 2008, the remaining balance of RM3,953.16 has been deposited to my CIMB bank account.

I am relieved, alhamdulillah.

So now... more money to save monthly, and preparing for another car, insyaAllah, will buy a car before Ramadan this year.

Now wondering which car to buy...

Untuk D|a, atas nama c|nta

Yakinkah ku berdiri, Di hempa tanpa tepi, Bolehkah aku MendengarMu?
Tubuh dalam emosi, Tak bisa bersembunyi,
Aku dan nafasku... MerindukanMu...

Terpuruk ku di sini, Teraniaya sepi.
Dan ku tahu pasti, Kau menemani
Dalam hidupku, Kesendirianku.

Teringat ku teringat, Pada janjiMu ku terikat. Hanya sekejap ku berdiri,
Kulakukan sepenuh hati

Peduli ku peduli. Siang dan malam yang berganti, Pedihku ini tak ada arti,
Jika Kaulah sandaran hati

Kaulah sandaran hati... Sandaran hati

Inikah yang Kau mau? Benarkah ini jalanMu?
Hanyalah Engkau yang ku tuju...

Pegang erat tanganku, Bimbing langkah kakiku
Aku hilang arah, Tanpa hadirMu...

Dalam gelapnya, Malam hariku.


Atas nama cinta, yang terpendam sekian lama. Hanyalah Engkau yang ku tuju...

"Aff|rmat|on"

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do

I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

and I do believe that gentleman is a myth!

why?

Is a question ive been asking myself since yesterday.

Is this love? Affection? The 'woman' in me?

Sigh.. it's complicated.

I guess i should just lay back and see where this will lead me.

Darn, im sick and feeling sicker....

I guess it's just the drugs :P

spr|ng's mag|c

Rite.
dunno that can i be this happy.
Of course, i have always been loving May.
Almost all important things in my life happened in May.

And now, as my life taking yet another turn, cant help but to sujud and say my syukur, that this year's May, glorious spring is on its way, and it looks promising enough... InsyaAllah.

bought myself an early birthday gift oredy... ehehehe...

my new cellie - nokia 6120 classic, wth "Q" - the sakai given by Chia Hu, souvinier from her recent trip to Taiwan..

So... Aida.. be happy. Its May!!!! :)

PeNaNg's Weekend

t's already May!!! The best month in a year, well at least for yours truly :)

Labour day today, and im home.
Just after lunch and had a very long shower.

Lets talk about my recent trip to Penang.
Place where i went on fortnight basis before.
When i was way younger and very much naive.

Was pretty exciting morning, last Friday - 25th April.
I woke up at 5.50am, to the ringing of an sms on my lovely new Nokia 6120 (he he).
An sms saying "wake up.. your bus already waiting"...
Then the sms sender called and we spoke until 630am (im supposed to leave the house by then, but im still on my pjs).

Arrived at the office at around 715am, thanks to my lil sist ta who sent me there. Almost all of the ppl going already there. I board coach no 7 and found out that my supposed to be roommate is not coming.

We started our journey north at 8am (so much for punctuality).
We have escorts!!! I was so happy as there is no traffic jam, no traffic lights from office to toll Jalan Duta.

The journey has been a wonderful one for me. It took us 6 hours to reach Penang, but i loved every moment. Its the first few hours of walking the memory lanes for me.

After abandoning Penang for 4 long years. Im finally have the reason to go again.

I made friends with a lot of ppl when i was in Penang. And rekindling a friendship with the very "reason" why i loved Penang before.

First night, when all of my colleagues went to the "Pirate of the Caribbeans' theme dinner, i went out with my friend and went to the famous Pasar Malam in Ferringgi town. I bought 49 pcs of DVDs, cost me $179.

The next day, 40 of us went to an orphanage called "Rumah Jagaan Nasyiatul Aisyiyah" in Balik Pulau.

It was so touching to watch the kids. We gave them our donations, Alhamdulillah, a big number of RM13,000.00++ in total. We also had been treated with Durians and Mangosteens by a few Managers that was with us on the trip on our way back to the hotel.

A video of the kids singing for us --> http://vupload.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1013133803530

It was a free and easy afternoon, and me and a few of the ladies took the free shuttle and went shopping to Georgetown. To KOMTAR and CHOWRASTA. I was given the task of being "the tour guide" and alhamdulillah, managed to guide them to the best place to buy jeruks in Chowrasta. I bought 5kgs of jeruk, and a few second hand books.

The dinner that took place that night was a bit boring. I was almost fell asleep on the dinner table. But anyhow, everyone has put on so much efforts and they should be happy that things went ok.

The next day, it was time to go home. It was a bad journey.. as i was sad to go home, and it took us 7 long hours to arrived!

All in all.. been a good three days vacation.
Some part of me was left in Penang. I will definitely comes back.

Never know how i missed it till i was finally there...didn't we all?

i.d.d.i.e.n.

toRn!

Torn between the old flame with flaming desires and a new one with less effort.

How do we choose?

With so little time.
And my lack of enthusiasm of being enthusiastic.

I hate to push others to make decissions.
I hate making decissions for them.

I think ill be like the usual thing. Ill end up with nothing.

Mer has been right when she quote : "Us, with the boobs? We make alot of bad decisions."

Sigh.

Anyhow.. ill be going to Penang, the place i used to go on forthnight basis before.
Will blog on that when im home!

Keep B|eeding Banana!

Leona Lewis Keep Bleeding Lyrics