so much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangnin'

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you care

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were DONE

He was everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Burdened? U can handle it..InsyaAllah..

Ramadhan 2006

Its my favorite month of all, apart from May, of course.
But somehow, it’s a bit weird this year. May be because a big part of my plan didn’t work, and I’m still stuck in KL, and that there is no emails on fasting and iftar’s schedules like last year.

Anyhow, I’m still somehow having the same routine.
Wake up for sahur, then fajr, catch some sleep, work, work and work, iftar at work if I have a lot of thing to do, home, maghrib, isya and tarawikh at the musollah, home, cook for extended iftar, sleep. Pretty much that, every day except weekends.

Theres a lot of stories when it came to Ramadhan. When I was still a small kid, I used to jump with happiness whenever the Penyimpan Mohor Raja Raja announced the date for 1st Ramadhan and 1st Syawal.

Now that I’m all grown up… the fun was to joke about the same man that made me jump around before J . Trying to guess what colour of baju melayu he will be wearing was so much fun it seems. Hahaha… I guess this year, I need to send him a raya card and say sorry.

Anyway, I pray that my Ramadhan this year will be way way better then the last one, and I hope ill get to have another Ramadhan next year, insyaAllah.

Wassalam

Changes. . .

Salams

It's a long week.
Tired emotionally and mentally and phisycally.

Anyway, its going to be Ramadhan soon... insyaAllah.
The best month in a year. I love Ramadhan and May the most.

I was doing my work at my desk just now, with winplayer blasting on my earphones.
And this song, a song that my dear friend, lets call him "T" one day sang to me.

It was a 'blues' day and i was down with my own 'ding dong' mind.
And he called and said i didnt sound happy. And i said, yeah, ive seen a better day.

Then, he just asked me to listen to him... and he sang ...

I feel unhappy
I feel so sad
I lost the best friend
That I ever had

She was my woman
I loved her so
But its too late now
Ive let her go

Im going through changes
Im going through changes
We shared the years
We shared each day
In love together
We found a way
But soon the world
Had its evil way

My heart was blinded
Love went astray

Im going through changes
Im going through changes

It took so long
To realize
That I can still hear
Her last goodbyes

Now all my days
Are filled with tears
Wish I could go back
And change these years

Im going through changes
Im going through changes

of course.. he only sang me the first verse, as i laughed so hard (man... i think i sounded better).

Hmm.... think think... may be i should go and audition for the next One in A Million - i wanna sing... "U r my sunshine... my only sunshine".. ehehehe

Wanna go home.

Till tomorrow... saturday.. ill have a BIG date with SJ!

The giant ship engine that failed...

Ever heard the story of the giant ship engine that failed?

The ship's owners tried one expert after another, but none of them could
figure but how to fix the engine. Then they brought in an old man who had
been fixing ships since he was a youngster. He carried a large bag of tools
with him, and when he arrived, he immediately went to work. He inspected
the engine very carefully, top to bottom.

Two of the ship's owners were there, watching this man, hoping he would
know what to do. After looking things over, the old man reached into his
bag and pulled out a small hammer.

He gently tapped something. Instantly, the engine lurched into life. He carefully put his hammer away. The engine was fixed! A week later, the owners received a bill from the old man for
ten thousand dollars.


"What?!" the owners exclaimed. "He hardly did anything!"

So they wrote the old man a note saying, "Please send us an itemized bill."

The man sent a bill that read:

Tapping with a hammer ............................... $ 2.00
Knowing where to tap ...........................$ 9998.00

Effort is important, but knowing where to make an effort in your life makes all the difference.

Leaving Singapore

13 September 2006..

9 days earlier then scheduled.

Still going to have trainings in kl.. so i cant say im relieved..

I have more bags then i thought ill be bringing back.. i cant imagine how am i going to handle them...

See u guys back in KL tomorrow!!!

Feeman Allah

Fairies... just to make u smile..

A married couple in their early 60s was out celebrating their 35th weddinganniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant.

Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table and said, "For being such an exemplary married couple and for being faithful to each other for all this time, I will grant you each a wish.

"Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband" said the wife.



The fairy waved her magic wand and poof! - two tickets for the QueenMary II luxury liner appeared in her hands.

Then it was the husband's turn. He thought for a moment and said:
"Well, this is all very romantic, but an opportunity like this will nevercome again. I'm sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me."

Both the wife and the fairy were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish.
So the fairy waved her magic wand and - poof! - the husband became 92 years old.


The moral of the story:

Men who are ungrateful ******* should remember that fairies are female.

Ahmad Ammar Farhan

Salams...

This is Ammar Farhan... the newest member of the family.

He is so cute and adorable.. and hardly cries.
I love his eyes.
I wish i have a lot more time with him.

Last weekend was the first time i saw him after he was born (19 July 2006).
I snapped so many of his picts, but i only managed to have these few picts on him here. (Some error while uploading).

Cant wait to go home.. to see all of my cute little anak sedara.. Alisya.. Ain, Aiman and Ammar.. and snap picts of them together.. :)

This weekend.. insyaAllah... Ill be in KL and will go back to Ipoh for the weekend.







Ok.. i wanna go back to my room and pack up.. tomorrow will check out and then fly back to KL .. Singapore Airlines.. nice.. :)

Will go to last dinner with Pakcik Mahmood and the gang after this.

Till tomorrow!

CY

CY - short for Christina Yap- one of my trainer in Singapore's office of Prudential.

First time i met her, i know i dont like her. Since she's one of the Spoke people and we are from Hub, we always hated Spoke (always got scolded..error logs, etc ..ehehe).

I am sitting next to her here at this office. And the first few days was unpleasant.
She is a 40 something, mother of two. And she is all 'Singaporean'. Inside out.

The first few days, when i want to ask questions about Major Alteration to her, she will just look at me and said 'ask your trainer can?'. i was errkk... i hated her.

But...
As time flies... we became fast friend.
I will not hesitate to say that i like her now.

my work station at Cuppage Road's Pru.. CY sits besides me, at my left side. Basically we are giving our backs to each other :)

Its all happened as we work together and Hadi, being new as he is, did some things that CY will refer back to me, and the day when she called me 'Multi purpose woman' was the day that make us closer.

She is so much like a big sister to me now. She sometimes mother me too. Still remember the day when she served me KFC during the month end closing. She even went to the buffet table to get me food, tear of the ketchup's sachet for me, throw away my paper plates... and ahem, scolded me when i throw away unfinished coffee in the bin. (Want me to finish the coffee before throwing the cup) :O

Multi - thats my name here in Singapore office. But wait.. CY wont allow anyone else call me Multi, except her. and even when Elis try to call me that, she was 'warned' by CY :0

and now, Elis calling me Multi woman, despite of CY's warnings.

Anyway... why this post about CY?

Its just because, she made me smile today.

Im flying out again tonight, insyaAllah.
Will be coming back to Singapore Sunday and then fly back on Wednesday, 13th Sept.
Will be back to KL for good..alhamdulillah.
The training is not over. Our trainers will be coming to KL and we'll continue there.
We might be coming down to Singapore again come October.

Anyway, CY is on half day leave today.

And before i left for lunch, i asked her, 'CY, what do you want from Kl this time around?'
And she didnt turn to me, she just said "You..only you"
I was like... hmm.. what?
She said... " i only want you from KL.. come back faster ha"

I didnt stopped smiling till now.
And when i came back after lunch, theres a little note at my keyboard.


And i showed it to everyone... :)

Even though i know she might not mean anything when she said what she said, it still made me happy.

And even happier... as i will be coming home to mak soon...insyaAllah..


Till later..

attention!!

Mr Back... the first para applies to u.. :P

Lisa Leob - Stay (I Missed You)



You say
I only hear what I want to
And you say I talk so all the time-so

And I thought what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leaving
Now I know that I did something wrong
cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you



And you say
I only hear what I want to
I don't listen hard
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to Anyone, anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative, no no no - bad

So I turned the radio on
I turned the radio up
And this woman was singing my song

The lover's in love and the other's run away
The lover is crying cause the other won't stay
And some of us hover
when we weep for the other whowas dying
Since the day they were born well

Well this is not that I think that I'm throwing
but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever but now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever but that won't take me anyhow
Or anywhere with you



And you said that I was naive
And I thought that I was strong
I thought "hey I can leave, I can leave"
But now I know that I was wrong
cause I missed you
Yeah I missed you

You said
"you caught me cause you want me And one day I'll let you go"

You try to give away a keeper or keep me
cause you're knowyou're just too scared to lose

And you say, "stay"

You say I only hear what I want to.



and my tears drops and my head down... im smiling but im dead inside... cause i missed you