sweet dream, bad day

Yesterday's morning, when i woke up, i smiled as i had a very good dream last night.
Mr John Sung, my x-boss, gave me a raise. Who could guess, from my normal salary, i was given a huge raise. HUGE! A $30K salary a month.

And at the end of the day last night, i wished that i hadn't woke up from that dream.

Yesterday was a sad day.

At 4am, Ita received a phone call from mak, saying pakcik Khalid, mak ngah's hubby passed away.

7.30am, Nissah was called by Rizal's mom. Our beloved Rizal called upon Allah yesterday. A news that makes me can do nothing almost the whole day. I cried. For Nissah. For Rizal that i never lied my eyes upon.

12.30noon, Joe called and said that one of his Tok passed away.

Innalillah Hi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rojiun... Al-Fatihah to all of them...

How to Survive a day @ d office?

Can't let go

There you are holding her hand
I am lost
Dying to understand
Didn’t I cherish you right?
Don’t you know you were my life ?

Even though I try
I can’t let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul
And every night I see you in my dreams
You’re all I know
I can’t let go

Just cast aside
You don’t even know I’m alive
You just walk on by
Don’t care to see me cry

And here I am
Still holding on
I can’t accept

My world is gone

Do you even realize the sorrow I have inside
Everyday of my life

Do you know the way it feels
When all you have just dies

I try and try to deny that I need you
But still you remain on my mind


No I just can’t get you out of my mind
I never can say goodbye

‘Cause every night I see you in my dreams
You’re all I know
I can’t let you go

Even though I try
I can’t let go of something I need so badly

You’re all I know I can’t let go

come back? pls ? pls!!

hmm...

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why you calling me so late?

It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying?
Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

"Far Away"

This time,

This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left'

Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all
I'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

'Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted, I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

-on my bended knees, asking my Lord to send him back to me... waiting for the days when my prayers answered, InsyaAllah-

CINTA

Wednesday - 6 December 2006 -

It's going to rain, i said at 5pm. And we had booked three movie tickets at the Berjaya Time Square to watch the most awaited movie. And we only have bikes today. So many things still hanging now, with so many cases that will go out of SLA tomorrow.

I looked at Aisyah, and she was like , 'what time are we leaving?', and i dont reply. simply because i dunno the answer. Finally, i shut off my pc at 5.18 and left the building. It was raining, so we decided to take a cab.. which, after the third cab refused to send us to Time Square, which is like 500 metres from our office, we decided to walk. And we walked.

It was a good-drizzling-windy walk. Took our reserved tickets, and went to Station Kopi Tiam to have dinner. And then, at 7pm, we started to the movie theather.

Cinta.

A story about love. Its a touching story, well, i keep on saying to Philo, 'been there, done that'.

And i fell in love with KL again. Its a good story to watch. Surely a $7 (coz i went on Wednesday) worth paying.

And we left the theather after the movie, dazed. Cause we have some happy endings and some sad endings. Just like the real world. A mixture of both and i should say, salute to the script writer and the director.

And i will remember the thing one of the character said...

"Because a little girl teach me, that love is about letting go"...

.iddien.

Up coming Bali Trip- Feb 2007

So so... yesterday, everything has been finalised.

We went to Pan Malaysian at MUI Plaza and i paid for our triple room for our up coming trip to Bali. Next Chinese New Year break. We paid for our flight tickets last week and managed to get a good deal on the hotel room.

Its going to be a blast! I cant wait to have four days tour Bali with Aisyah and Philo.
We call it - Spore three people thingy-.. which, anyone else cant join in.

We arrived to the conclusion of going to Bali after debating on food. We were planning to go to Phuket or Medan... and finally, Bali it is. (Since im going to Medan with Mak and my sisters next May, i think i better go Bali la.. )


Hmmm... any wish list anyone... yeah, i know its like 2 and half months to go.. but hey... i am excited!!!

Selamat Hari Raya!!! Last trip to Spore, with Aisyah n Philo in front of Eid decoration @ Geylang Serai.

In front of Holiday Inn PArk View, our home for a while in Spore. (Waiting for a cab to go to Arab Street for iftar, just after arrived at the hotel).

blocked..blocked everywhere!

Sigh...

I hate it when im trying to excess my gmail and it says... excess blocked.
What the heck? So i just need to do my work and no personal stuff?
For 12 hours a day, 6 days a week?

Sigh...

Anyway... i now found the solution, im using www.kproxy.com to excess what ever web page that is blocked at the office.. shh... dun tell so many people okie :P

But then again... i cant go to meebo.com... sigh again.

Anyway, im quite 'ok' with just gmail then... not that im receivieng much emails anyway ..

Its 3.25 on Saturday. I think its time to go home and catch some sleep.
I dun remember when was the last time i go to sleep early these days.. sigh

Till later!

Kenangan Terindah

To my special someone, who i know, i wont find a replacement. Hidup dengan baik... minta dengan sangat...


Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Camel Active finally rested

After more then four months, living in an adventure life with me, finally, 31 October 2006, my lovely travelling companion, my humble and cute little luggage, is now rested. Dunno until when, i think should be until may be February 2006, IF my plan to go to Danau Toba with Philo and Aisyah come true. So tonight, InsyaAllah, i will wrap it up in the big bag to prevent dust, and it will go back to its resting place, a corner in my bedroom.

I do think it look a bit tired, rite?

I know the feeling, travelling and get thrown by the potter, trying it's best to stay sane when i put wayyy too much things inside it... but being a Camel Active... it dont supposed to look this tired.. no? :)

Last trip tag. Changi to Kuala Lumpur, Japan Airlines, 31 October 2006.

Rest In Peace my dear luggage. Till next trip !

p/s : dun call me crazy woman.. i appreciate things ok.. ehehehe

i TRY- my fav one..

Games, changes, and fears

When will they go from here

When will they stop?

I believe that fate

Has brought us here

And we should be together

But we're not

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you

And I'll keep my cool but I'm feelin'

I try to say good-bye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it,

it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free

But I'm just a prisoner of your love

And I may seem alright

And smile when you leave

But my smiles are just a front

Here is my confession

May I be your possession

I need your touch,

Your love, kisses, and such

With all my might I try

But this I can't deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you

And I'll keep my cool but I'm feelin'

I try to say good-bye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

So..so

Its Saturday.

At the office now, doing nothing, waiting for the rain to stop so i can make my next move.

Planning to go to Central Market to buy something to be brought to Spore office tomorrow afternoon. And to get something as a farewell gift for Hanis.

Sigh... i wished i drove this morning.

Anyway... Its a peaceful place, this office, during weekends.

Theres not much people around. I only have Bai and Zai here. And Zura at the other end of the office. Watching the rain and klcc from my window, and mp3 blasting with NickleBack.

It was Ismail's last day on 11 October 2006. He called me yesterday from his new office to wish me Eid Mubarak, and he sounded so happy. Makes me missed the old days when i used to sits besides him here. Listening to his complains and jokes, and singing our famous 'kucing' song.

-Saya ada kucing... ekornya panjang... bulu warna putih, cantik berbelang... bila saya panggil, dia pun datang... tersangatlah manja, saya pun sayang...-

Ismail.. hope u'll be happy and well, anywhere u r. Ahah.. i do have a pict of the last day of him at Pru. He is the big guy in blue, smiling his 'not so sincere' smile :)

- me with my 'senget' pose, seen here with Ernie, the white BK mother-

Why Not Me?

Weird Tittle... :P

Anyway, a few pictures taken recently of my nieces and nephews..

They are so cute, Masya Allah...

Been a While..

Salams

Its been almost a month I didn’t blog anything.
Was a busy and a full month, last Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah.
Hope my deeds will be accepted by Allah, insyaAllah.

Was a sad month too, but I managed well.

So.. today is the forth of Eid. Begun working again yesterday, after a five days off. The longest break after 1 year. Went back to my lovely home in Ipoh for the weekend, sent mak, kak yong, kak kay, ziqi and the rest to the airport. Spending Eid in Medan and Bali this year, after the trip postponed last year.

Hope to see them again soon, insyaAllah.

Eid was, like what I’ve told my friend, not even started for me. Even last year, Eid is not as happy as it supposed to be. But anyhow, I loved the long break.

Will be going back to Singapore for a few days this coming weekend. The last batch of the trainings, InsyaAllah. Will be going with Philo only this time, and we already plotted the shopping spree days :P To start it off, we are going using an earlier flight, we called Amex-MayFlower and changed our flight..just imagine... Going to our favourite place… Little India, Arab street and kampong Glam.

Anyway today, I went home in the pouring rain. Its been a while I didn’t have that. Took my time on the scoot and let the rain drops on me.

Tired oredy.
Tomorrow, I want to wake up earlier.
As usual, I woked up at 8.30am again today

Till next blog then

Signing off

30 Sept!

Month end again.

Its 4.38pm.. a saturday... and im still at the office.. pah...

Lets go buy some samosas for iftar?

jommm....


vrooommmm... (aisyah's new car).....

I have lived through 65 of these 99 things

[1] I have read a book before
[ 2] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping (on thread mill)
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[3] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[4] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[5] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[6] I have played ping pong.
[7] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[8] I have seen fireworks.
[] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[9] I have almost drowned.
[10] I have been so embarrassed I wanted todisappear.
[11] I have listened to one cd over & over & overagain.
[ 12]I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuckthere.
[13] I have stayed up til 6am doing homework /projects..and chatting :P
[14 ] I currently have a job.
[ ] I have been ice skating.
[15] I have been rollerblading.
[16 ] I have fallen flat on my face.
[17] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[18 ] I have played videogames/comfor more than 3 hours straight.
[ 19] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[20] I do / have attended Church/Mosque regularly.
[] I have played truth or dare.
[21] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[22] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[23] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[24] I've been in a verbal argument.
[25] I've cried in school.
[ 26] I've played basketball on a team.
[27 ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've swam on a team.
[28] I've been swimming more than 20 times in mylife.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[ ] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[29] I've lost more than $20.
[30] I've called myself an idiot
[31] I've called someone else an idiot
[32] I've cried myself to sleep
[33] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a Spice Girls cd and or tape
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[ 34] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[ 35] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[36] I've mooned someone
[37 ] I've sworn at someone in authority
[ 38] I've been in the school newspaper / insights.
[ ] I've been on TV
[39] I've eaten sushi.
[40 ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[ 41] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[42 ]I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stoogesat least once.
[ ]I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[43 ]I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[ ]I've been stuffed into a locker
[ 44] I've been called a geek.
[45]I've studied hard for a test and got a badgrade.
[46]I've not studied at all for a test and acedit.
[47]I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[48 ]I've written poetry.
[]I've been arrested
[49]I've(had) been attracted to someone much older than me
[]I've been tickled till I've cried
[50 ]I've tickled someone else until they cried
[51] I've had / have siblings
[ 52]I've been to a rock concert
[ 53] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[] I've been in a play [musical]
[ ] i've been picked last in gym class
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[ ] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gymclass.
[54 ] I've cried in front of my friends
[55 ]I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[ ] I've freaked out over a sports game
[] I’ve vomited in public[sob]
[ 56] I've washed someone else’s vomit
[ 57] I’ve ran away
[58] I’ve had a stalker
[59] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[60] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
[ 61] I've been in a car accident
[62] I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
[ 63] I've personally seen someone die
[64] I've been confronted by a police officer but gotaway
[65] I've lost someone who meant the world tome

so much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangnin'

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you care

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were DONE

He was everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be

But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me

Just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Burdened? U can handle it..InsyaAllah..

Ramadhan 2006

Its my favorite month of all, apart from May, of course.
But somehow, it’s a bit weird this year. May be because a big part of my plan didn’t work, and I’m still stuck in KL, and that there is no emails on fasting and iftar’s schedules like last year.

Anyhow, I’m still somehow having the same routine.
Wake up for sahur, then fajr, catch some sleep, work, work and work, iftar at work if I have a lot of thing to do, home, maghrib, isya and tarawikh at the musollah, home, cook for extended iftar, sleep. Pretty much that, every day except weekends.

Theres a lot of stories when it came to Ramadhan. When I was still a small kid, I used to jump with happiness whenever the Penyimpan Mohor Raja Raja announced the date for 1st Ramadhan and 1st Syawal.

Now that I’m all grown up… the fun was to joke about the same man that made me jump around before J . Trying to guess what colour of baju melayu he will be wearing was so much fun it seems. Hahaha… I guess this year, I need to send him a raya card and say sorry.

Anyway, I pray that my Ramadhan this year will be way way better then the last one, and I hope ill get to have another Ramadhan next year, insyaAllah.

Wassalam

Changes. . .

Salams

It's a long week.
Tired emotionally and mentally and phisycally.

Anyway, its going to be Ramadhan soon... insyaAllah.
The best month in a year. I love Ramadhan and May the most.

I was doing my work at my desk just now, with winplayer blasting on my earphones.
And this song, a song that my dear friend, lets call him "T" one day sang to me.

It was a 'blues' day and i was down with my own 'ding dong' mind.
And he called and said i didnt sound happy. And i said, yeah, ive seen a better day.

Then, he just asked me to listen to him... and he sang ...

I feel unhappy
I feel so sad
I lost the best friend
That I ever had

She was my woman
I loved her so
But its too late now
Ive let her go

Im going through changes
Im going through changes
We shared the years
We shared each day
In love together
We found a way
But soon the world
Had its evil way

My heart was blinded
Love went astray

Im going through changes
Im going through changes

It took so long
To realize
That I can still hear
Her last goodbyes

Now all my days
Are filled with tears
Wish I could go back
And change these years

Im going through changes
Im going through changes

of course.. he only sang me the first verse, as i laughed so hard (man... i think i sounded better).

Hmm.... think think... may be i should go and audition for the next One in A Million - i wanna sing... "U r my sunshine... my only sunshine".. ehehehe

Wanna go home.

Till tomorrow... saturday.. ill have a BIG date with SJ!

The giant ship engine that failed...

Ever heard the story of the giant ship engine that failed?

The ship's owners tried one expert after another, but none of them could
figure but how to fix the engine. Then they brought in an old man who had
been fixing ships since he was a youngster. He carried a large bag of tools
with him, and when he arrived, he immediately went to work. He inspected
the engine very carefully, top to bottom.

Two of the ship's owners were there, watching this man, hoping he would
know what to do. After looking things over, the old man reached into his
bag and pulled out a small hammer.

He gently tapped something. Instantly, the engine lurched into life. He carefully put his hammer away. The engine was fixed! A week later, the owners received a bill from the old man for
ten thousand dollars.


"What?!" the owners exclaimed. "He hardly did anything!"

So they wrote the old man a note saying, "Please send us an itemized bill."

The man sent a bill that read:

Tapping with a hammer ............................... $ 2.00
Knowing where to tap ...........................$ 9998.00

Effort is important, but knowing where to make an effort in your life makes all the difference.

Leaving Singapore

13 September 2006..

9 days earlier then scheduled.

Still going to have trainings in kl.. so i cant say im relieved..

I have more bags then i thought ill be bringing back.. i cant imagine how am i going to handle them...

See u guys back in KL tomorrow!!!

Feeman Allah

Fairies... just to make u smile..

A married couple in their early 60s was out celebrating their 35th weddinganniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant.

Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table and said, "For being such an exemplary married couple and for being faithful to each other for all this time, I will grant you each a wish.

"Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband" said the wife.



The fairy waved her magic wand and poof! - two tickets for the QueenMary II luxury liner appeared in her hands.

Then it was the husband's turn. He thought for a moment and said:
"Well, this is all very romantic, but an opportunity like this will nevercome again. I'm sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me."

Both the wife and the fairy were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish.
So the fairy waved her magic wand and - poof! - the husband became 92 years old.


The moral of the story:

Men who are ungrateful ******* should remember that fairies are female.

Ahmad Ammar Farhan

Salams...

This is Ammar Farhan... the newest member of the family.

He is so cute and adorable.. and hardly cries.
I love his eyes.
I wish i have a lot more time with him.

Last weekend was the first time i saw him after he was born (19 July 2006).
I snapped so many of his picts, but i only managed to have these few picts on him here. (Some error while uploading).

Cant wait to go home.. to see all of my cute little anak sedara.. Alisya.. Ain, Aiman and Ammar.. and snap picts of them together.. :)

This weekend.. insyaAllah... Ill be in KL and will go back to Ipoh for the weekend.







Ok.. i wanna go back to my room and pack up.. tomorrow will check out and then fly back to KL .. Singapore Airlines.. nice.. :)

Will go to last dinner with Pakcik Mahmood and the gang after this.

Till tomorrow!

CY

CY - short for Christina Yap- one of my trainer in Singapore's office of Prudential.

First time i met her, i know i dont like her. Since she's one of the Spoke people and we are from Hub, we always hated Spoke (always got scolded..error logs, etc ..ehehe).

I am sitting next to her here at this office. And the first few days was unpleasant.
She is a 40 something, mother of two. And she is all 'Singaporean'. Inside out.

The first few days, when i want to ask questions about Major Alteration to her, she will just look at me and said 'ask your trainer can?'. i was errkk... i hated her.

But...
As time flies... we became fast friend.
I will not hesitate to say that i like her now.

my work station at Cuppage Road's Pru.. CY sits besides me, at my left side. Basically we are giving our backs to each other :)

Its all happened as we work together and Hadi, being new as he is, did some things that CY will refer back to me, and the day when she called me 'Multi purpose woman' was the day that make us closer.

She is so much like a big sister to me now. She sometimes mother me too. Still remember the day when she served me KFC during the month end closing. She even went to the buffet table to get me food, tear of the ketchup's sachet for me, throw away my paper plates... and ahem, scolded me when i throw away unfinished coffee in the bin. (Want me to finish the coffee before throwing the cup) :O

Multi - thats my name here in Singapore office. But wait.. CY wont allow anyone else call me Multi, except her. and even when Elis try to call me that, she was 'warned' by CY :0

and now, Elis calling me Multi woman, despite of CY's warnings.

Anyway... why this post about CY?

Its just because, she made me smile today.

Im flying out again tonight, insyaAllah.
Will be coming back to Singapore Sunday and then fly back on Wednesday, 13th Sept.
Will be back to KL for good..alhamdulillah.
The training is not over. Our trainers will be coming to KL and we'll continue there.
We might be coming down to Singapore again come October.

Anyway, CY is on half day leave today.

And before i left for lunch, i asked her, 'CY, what do you want from Kl this time around?'
And she didnt turn to me, she just said "You..only you"
I was like... hmm.. what?
She said... " i only want you from KL.. come back faster ha"

I didnt stopped smiling till now.
And when i came back after lunch, theres a little note at my keyboard.


And i showed it to everyone... :)

Even though i know she might not mean anything when she said what she said, it still made me happy.

And even happier... as i will be coming home to mak soon...insyaAllah..


Till later..

attention!!

Mr Back... the first para applies to u.. :P

Lisa Leob - Stay (I Missed You)



You say
I only hear what I want to
And you say I talk so all the time-so

And I thought what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leaving
Now I know that I did something wrong
cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you



And you say
I only hear what I want to
I don't listen hard
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to Anyone, anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative, no no no - bad

So I turned the radio on
I turned the radio up
And this woman was singing my song

The lover's in love and the other's run away
The lover is crying cause the other won't stay
And some of us hover
when we weep for the other whowas dying
Since the day they were born well

Well this is not that I think that I'm throwing
but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever but now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever but that won't take me anyhow
Or anywhere with you



And you said that I was naive
And I thought that I was strong
I thought "hey I can leave, I can leave"
But now I know that I was wrong
cause I missed you
Yeah I missed you

You said
"you caught me cause you want me And one day I'll let you go"

You try to give away a keeper or keep me
cause you're knowyou're just too scared to lose

And you say, "stay"

You say I only hear what I want to.



and my tears drops and my head down... im smiling but im dead inside... cause i missed you

Month End Blues

Yah.. Its month end.. and unlike last month, when KL bosses was so angry cause we didnt help much on closing due to our trainings, this month, all the bosses trying to get some bit and pieces af us to help each and everyone.

Who said Major Alteration easy? We are so called 'multi task' people.



Anyway, its a bad day today.

Mak admitted to ICU . I cant go see her,
Nissah smsed and said mak is in ICU, doctor suspect she have heart problem.
Salamtek mak. Im sorry i wasnt there. Will try to be home next week insyaAllah.
Nissah, Joe and Ita will drive down tonight. Glad that tomorrow is a public holiday in Malaysia.

Hmm... its been a very long, slow day and it was raining.

I wanna go home. I wanna go to mak...

My fav two

Its Friday, and i am going back to KL again tonight, insyaAllah.

Its a lovely day, and i made a complete 'fool' of myself in front of my friends at lunch today.
Dunno what exactly happened.

Anyway, im thinking of bunny, and i think of things - the start and end- of things.
And i thought about my favourite two, Calvin and Hobbes.

Fortunately, i have the first strip and the last one from Bill Watterson.

Let see....

This is the first one. Published on 18 November 1985 in the 'Daily'.

Its the start of a lovely friendship. The day when Calvin found Hobbes.
And this is the last strip done. It has been published in the Washington Post on 31 December 1995, and now, its can be found in It's A Magical World.

The one that i love so much, will be the famous "Christmas Eve". I cut the strip off the newspaper and i have it with me until now.

On window panes, the icy frost

Leaves feathered patterns, crissed & crossed,

But in our house

the christmas tree

Is decorated festively

With tiny dots of colored light

That cozy up this winter night.

Christmas songs, familiar, slow,

Play softly on the radio.

Pops and isses from the fire

Whistle with the bells and choir.

My tiger is now fast asleep

On his back and dreaming deep.

When the fire makes him hot,

He turns to warm whatever's not.

Propped against him on the rug,

I give my friend a gentle hug.

Tomorrow's what I'm waiting for,

But I can wait a little more.

The 'Act Real' day

Monday blues…

Today is the day when I ‘act real’ to the max.
I hardly slept last night. I watched ‘Untamed Heart’ for the sixth time on Vision Four at 1.25am till late, then sat down on the sofa and watch the night traffics on Orchard Road from my window.

A lot of things came across my mind.. and I can hardly open my brain up to work today.
And now, I am counting the time to go back to my room. Anyway, the gang came up with an idea (my manager and lead specialist will be here starting tomorrow for three weeks).. We are going to go back early today as we don’t see any other chances to do it later when the bosses are here. And we are going to California Fitness to burn some fat at 6 pm today.

Find with me, even thought my original plan was to go back to my room and sleep till tomorrow morning. I guess when I am tired enough tonight, ill sleep myself out :p

Glancing around me now.. its 5.05pm and what I see is that my colleagues are all busy with something. Act real la.. ehehe

Okie.. guess I should clean up my messy table and get ready to go home.. erkk… go to my room :P

Till tomorrow!!

Lazy Saturday

Workers at lunch - Courtesy of SAM

Its 19th August.

Woke up early this morning, despite of sleeping quite late last night.
Yup.. we know we have to be working today, but heck.. we wanna have some night life fun. :P

So.. after light dinner (bubur lambuk - courtesy of pakcik Mahmood), i went for my shower and when i stepped out of the bathroom, i went to call Aisyah n Dayang. And finally, 15 minutes after that call, we head out to Mustaffa centre. at 9.30pm !!

It was, well... a fun shopping place. Things, expecially foodstuff are generously cheap. Imagine, 400gm Nutella spread is obly SGD3.40! Rat cheap! I keep telling Baizura that if i am staying in Singapore, ill be twice as fat as i am today. :P

Anyway, we went back to the hotel and arrived at 12.35am. Then Philo, out of the sudden asked we want to have some manggo puddings. of course.. im starving. Eat my soaked instant noodles and then the manggo puddings and have fun talking and laughing with Philo, her friend, Dayang, Aisyah and Bai. We tried to not to be too loud.. scared of our neighbour complaining to the manager. ehehehe

Im off to Geylang Serai after this.
Will snap picts again and will upload to the blog when i got the time..

Btw.. one of my friend changed his name to "Back". so funny..

Till then!

Wishing I Was There

I was watching Singaporean Idols last night, and one of the participants sang this song. Its hillarious to watch them sing (man.. malaysian idols are way way way better).. but it brings back memories.

Used to love this song...

So...lets sing along? :)

Take your hand
And place it in my pocket
Flick your eyes back in their sockets
Put those thoughts away
Sometimes they're much to loud
I'll take a breath
And cradle your sweet head

Should've stayed at home in bed
Put that face away
I'm melting for youI know,
I get cold
Cos I can't leave things well alone
Understand I'm accident prone
Me, I get free
Every night the moon is mine
But when the morning comes
Don't say you love me
Don't say you need me
I really don't think that's fair



Boy I'm not so dumb
But when you leave me
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there

I dreamt about another girl in bed with you
You just laughed and smiled
Denied the proof
We're fine till I think of the problem
I wish it made sense
Like a joke that no one gets
It's a life without regret
I want to feel that way, forever and ever

I know, I get cold
Cos I can't leave things well alone
Understand I'm accident prone
Me, I get free
Every night the moon is mine

But when the morning comes
Don't say you love me
Don't say you need me
I really don't think that's fair
Boy I'm not so dumb
But when you leave me
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing I was there
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing I was there with you
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing I was there
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing I was there with you

Don't say you love me
Don't say you need me
I really don't think that's fair
Boy I'm not so dumb
But when you leave me
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there with you
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there with you
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there with you
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there
I'll be wishing I, wishing I, wishing, I was there with you

Take a break!

funny.. yet sad.. men... what else can i say? :P

Blur like sotong

Im in a blur blur state of mind today.

Dunno what im doing..where im going.

Had a briefing session with our training department people who flew down to Singapore to check on our progress, onlyto find out that we will be here until October.

No... i wanna go home.
Its "dry" here in Singapore.
Wanna see the little kiddos!!!

Still waiting for Ammar's pictures.. im going to miss out things on him now..

arghh... blurred mind... Thank God its 6.50pm already.. another 40 minutes to go back to my room and zzzzzz ..... till the time when i need to go back to office. hmm

Pru office @ Cuppage Road, Spore scanning dept island


Till my mind clear again!

Uniquely Singapore - Part 3

Pictures i took on the foot tour and some when i went jalan jalan at Bugis.
Some buildings just amazed me and i cant help but snapping away... :P

Enjoy!!

This 'one layer' building amzing rite? Amazes me everytime i see it tho..

Dayang n me @ malay museum, Kg Glam

kampung Glam Abraham Lincoln?

behind me is the 'padang' Aisyah@The Koi Garden LO..LO..LO VE! the 'padang'

the esplanade merlion park fr afar

the esplanade again! aisyah n me n merlion